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Tchers' day celebration. Lessons onli til 940. Gt bak lit paper & overall scores. Oh well. Still ok lars mi. Danielle actualli gt full score fer paper sia, damn pro der lors her. Den celebration, onli lik 1hr+. Pretty short compared to nlps? Uhuh, den rush bak to nlps, quite lot ppl bt gate nt open yet. So w8 w8 w8 til gate open den everyone chiong in. Traffic jam, well sort of.
Kkaes. Den after finally, i saw mrs cha!! Hoho. Gav her my present, well, hope she like it lars. She talked ter us den say she's gonna be bz coz she gt class. Typical of her eh, she's lik always bz der lors. Last yr oso? And plus exam period afterall.
Ltr den i went juniper's house wif tingyu o_o idk y the hell im gg bt i juz went. Watched some animes, seriously i lik so damn long nv watch one liao. Kkaes den juniper nid go out so i left first, tink tingyu leave nt long after bahs?
Lolz... Kaes nw i officialli bo lui once again. After buyin mrs cha's pres yea, nt even enuf money buy fer 林老师. -$4.5 i owe feiliacia fer the neoprints...... eh. And tmr gt holiday! Coz is official teachers' day, gdgd. Bt gonna waste it again hars, bloody. Rights, idk juz wth is wif mi sia. Times and times again and once again, is it ever gonna end? The 4th wk is already ending... |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 1:35 AM |
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| Since i gt back my first few maths papers, i already gt too tired of studying maths. SA1, i no longer dared to study history. Now CA2, i lost my confidence to study geog. I still wan to study geog, bt its gonna take some time before i even dared to do tt. Wad now, after SA2 am i going to lose confidence to study at all? 4wks, nt alot of time is it? Heck out of it. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 11:48 PM |
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| Saturday, August 29, 2009 |
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Okaes. Some time no write har.
Td went out wif feialiacia, movie n kbox. Watched Up! in northpt gv, den go amk kbox. Up! still okok onli lars... nt all tt great lo. It seemed more like a quite sad story to mi dan a comedy actualli. Bt kbox is damn nice de lorrs!! Damn damn nice dd. Sang quite some songs (most chinese of coz), bt i tink feia sang more lolz. Tho quite ex lars, $24 i tink 3 haf hrs (or arnd thr)? I still wan go siah, n actualli i dun mind paying th amt td, gt ter sing at least. If alot ppl go, den the cost oso go up (pakage price) bt the singing times fewer, nt gd at all. So actualli less ppl go better lor, wad i tink. If alot ppl den i might nt go bah?
And shyt i forgt pass on info coz i was rushed in da afternoon coz i kinda l8 fer the movie liao. When i was abt to leave house i still looked back coz i tot i forgt sth... Den is i forgt pass info :| i tink dad sorta angry nw liaoz. Haiyas.
And still undecided to join band not. My frenz say til so ciam liddat... Call mi crazy fer wanting ter join band, so ciam ah? Bt ya lar, dey gt damn lot practices lor. Feialiacia oso say band pulls down score, as if my grade nt low enuf liddat lor. Go lower i go suicide first lar. Haiz la, bt guides bo meaning de lor. Lik, wads the pt? Say campfire fun lik nt fun at all ders, den say hard gt all those testwk badges cip n blablabla. Stay is can lar, gt cca pt at least... Bt unhappi fer 4yrs lik nt worth la. Pri sch cca ended badly liao leh. Haiyo dk liao lar, whole thing is darn messed up.
Ok so, td ktv (kbox) made mi hyper bt den nw is back ter th usual beh. Coz ytd gt bak geog paper i realli wanna cry lor. Did, abit bahs. Den went crying on bus abit more. See, who ever knew? In sch ask y my eyes abit red i act v oblivious. And sometimes i juz wan to cry. If can cry out at least nt so hard lars, sometimes juz go numb wan cry oso dunno hw cry liao. Dk if its coz liddat so one of my eye damn pain these days, trying to cry. Lol or mayb rub my eye too hard omg mayb damaged, noooooo, plz. Ha who ever knew. Nobody realli knows. Haiz. Everything im getting crap out of. Gotta go study soon i bet. 4wks left, look wad even happen to my geog? Tis is bloody. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 8:37 AM |
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| Wednesday, August 26, 2009 |
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i knew i shud never never never had told u abt tt.
who the hell are you to me tt i hv to let u have ur way.
were u ever thr when i was sad?
did u even care the slightest whether i was sad? did u even notice it??
no u din, u juz came turning to mi only when ur left behind.
im sorry but im not sorry, u started it first,
argh, i know im gonna get retribution fer tis.
its a sin, and a crime to tink like this, sorry.
but regarding tis matter, im nt quite sorry.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 3:37 AM |
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Yes, nth's up in particular. Sci life td, so reached home arnd 6pm. Td is tues, wich means tmr is wed. And one idiot thing abt wednesdays is tt it has cca.
Damnit im a suicidal, tho nt quite as literalli yet. Bloody heck of 9 full testwk, thr's none tt i did. Somehow i juz refuse to do tho i noe i wud die tt way. Ha. And i have to go tmr, pay off da money... And after they take the money, they gonna dig up everything i did. Skipping guides fer no reasons, nv even hand in a single testwk, n blah blah. Tink its funni, walao to heck la u. Mayb they're gg take mi to gmSeriously. I gonna get chopped into pieces. By the teacher summore, may i hope i wun cry plz? :| If im gonna die, its almost as if i asked fer it. Suicidal act, sure is. Indeed.
Nth much, i guess. Tmr is gonna be a bloody day. If nt, friday. Ending here.
solitaryinside,imreallisickoftringsickoflyingsickofcrying,nothingisforever.
ilostmyway,whramiwhramiheadingwhrshudihead,wichrouteismoreright?
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 5:32 AM |
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Wad? Typical sch day lars....
And i din get back any of my papers.
Idk whether shud i be disappointed or happy :S
And walao eh, i forgt bring my geog wb td!! Damnit so gotta hand in tmr bt like i nv do n dunno do alot lors. Bt others all hand in td ler ma... no one to copy :\ Besides, the max score fer wb is lower dan others... (I handed in the file) Sian sian i wan die liao. Tmr i go sch chiong tho idk how im gonna do tt.
Bloody freaking testwk hvnt even touch, lik gdness sake. Wednesday lez!! WEDNESDAY gdness. Lik day after tmr n thr's lik 9 whole testwk untouched. Nt doing any i tink... Haiz i can go die. Seriously. I feel im some idiot tt knows im gonna die if i stands thr nt moving bt i still purposely stand thr to die. Like, seriously.
Fine. Shall end here.
toomuchironiesandbiasedinthisfreakingworld,nothingisforever. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 7:20 AM |
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| Saturday, August 22, 2009 |
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Walao.
The more i tink abt it, i noe more tt im gonna die.
The fone call i took from my mum fer a short while was lik.
"why are u picking up the call??? i wan to speak to ur mother!" ".....er....." "okay then wud u like to explain WHY u did not come??" "........................" "are you SO ill that you must miss guides?" "....er... no..." "then what reasons do u hv to miss guides today despite promising that u will be here td??" "......................... forgot" "forgot?? just after u promised u will be here and u SO conveniently forgot and go home. whr do u live?" "...yishun" "yishun!! so conveniently run back to yishun." "......i still not enuf money..." "not enuf money! herh... lemmi speak to ur mother i wan to talk to her" "ok..."
den i return fone to my mum lo... yea dying like seriously. coz of the money now she's gonna ask mi one damn lot and demand reasons for my missing guides fer so mani times. Tho its the money tt trigger tis thing, she's gonna dig up everything and im in for a doom. Still rmb she say "if u dun wan mi to pick on u, u better do ur parts well" at the start of the yr. Die die i seriously die.
Okaes... Haiz i hvnt do testwk bloody shyt.
Alrites kind of typical wkend, using com & playing now lors.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 12:02 AM |
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Argh.
纸包不住火 is so damn right.
Skipped guides td coz no money to pay despite promising i will go n pay td. Guides' teacher call my house my parent answer.I skipped guides n nv pay money yet n nw im gonna die. My parents dunno i skipped guides wad, n ltr dad come bak sure more dead. Guilty lars mi. Testwk like shyt nv even look, i oso dunno nw how liao. Wed they gonna collect all testwk, damnit. And no money so cnnt eat lunch/recess fer 3 days nx wk. Den plus some savings shud be able to pay. Retarded siah, originalli $18 now ytd nite fer some unknown reason ask ppl pay another $5. Tink i so rich izzit? Go rob bank la. I broke lik wad liao lez. Bt walao, pay le money oso nt gonna reduce problems lor. Gt miss guides w/o reasons ah, gt one testwk oso nv hand in ah. Damn, abt testwk im gonna die like some shyt and killed den chained and tortured den chop and boil and grill and fry den eaten. Ouch im so damn guilty. Sorry my apologies. Juz lemmi pray she dun go class find mi or sth, den whole class will noe hw ridiculed im or hai 1/2 get even more bad reputation. I myself de reputation in guides is sux like heck liao lars, dun wan hai class lez... Bt i get a feeling she will siah, juz lik the instant the fone rang ; i noe im in for a doom. And im, i noe im.
In for a penny in for a pound. Sth i felt like saying all of a sudden, random or nt. I hv got to bear wif it, my fault afterall yea my fault-- its mine. Consequence, wadever it is im in for it and im telling u im gonna die. Wad wif the untouched testwk since the 2nd time of reject or wif nv pay money or wif skipping guides so mani times. Toking abt tis, recess talking to jianlong i say all the bad thing abt testwk when he ask wads tt, n after tt he tell mi my senior is behind. Ha. Ok back to topic. For god noes i'll be heading to dm. Omigosh since i entered tis sch i've kind of became a rebel eh. Ha. Disappointing sure, i hate myself anyway. Im juz, realli realli realli sorry. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 2:53 AM |
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| Thursday, August 20, 2009 |
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Heyys.
Some days no see.
Long post here i bet?
18/08 - tues
Baddddd day. I woke up slightly later den i forgt to wear my specs until voiddeck wich is rather dots. Went bak and knock coz i dun wanna dig my bag fer keys. Bt after knocking enuf times nobody opened so i hv to open the door myself n went in n blah. It was pretty late liao i tink, so rush to bus stop. Apparently another repeat of those previous yrS chiong-to-sch walk , i went to bus-stop in lik 8min or sth. Den 853 came, n so damnit it was actualli so full tt nt haf more person can go in. Fine so i waited fer another bus n gd thing it came nt too long. Ok den yea, reach yck liao den 72 juz went. Wonderful -_- bt in the end nv late, juz had to put my bags on da floor behind. Kkaes bt the major matters r tt i had 3 bloody tests on tis day. Maths history and drama. Oh how great cud tt be. Maths was HECK i tell u!!! STUPID CONSTRUTIONS LAR IDIOT. Hai mi cnnt finish the easy 4mark stimulatus ques lez!! walao eh, do haf way den no time. Thx the stupid constrution tt i redrew the whole thing four times yet doubt correct, OH THX. But hor one line dun connect so i juz ignore the measurement n join them, hw can tt even be correct. Sian la, the stimulatus ques i noe hw do one!!!!
19/08 - wed
Generalli typical day, lessons n stuff. Den it came dismissal n i cudnt decide if i shud skip guides or not. Wich in the end apparently i did not and went coz i skipped both days last wk n tot tis day was footdrills (noticeboard). Den it ended up in the com lab, doing some testwk wich i noe i din even look at. Other sec1s kip say mi bad, skip n nv do -_- Bt cnnt say anything coz i admit they're bull's eye. Lik goodness sake they wan it tis fri or latest nx wed i dun tink im realli gonna do larrrssss. And im owing guides abt $18 by now. $14 guides tee, $2 campfire dinner, $2 some guides fund. Oh rgt oh rgt, lik i nt broke enuf lor!
20/08 - thurs (here comes td!)
Hm. Geog test............................................................... T_____T walao two damn easy ques i nv do!!!! TT_TT wan cry liao~ Lolz. Yah, basicalli td is abt geog test beh, den did last min arranging of sci file den hand it in. Uhuh, oh ya talking abt sci, td mr chan disect a sheep's heart during lab hoho. Pretty gross, esp the smell. Stinks. He point here point thr say tis part is wad tt part is wad bt i cnt realli tell the diff nor cud i realli rmb :\ Well, and the back of the ws was stained by some unknown substance in libr wich is most prob icecream -_- Oh yea n td coz jw sr mi go assembly late abit, the whole class kenna stayed back again when dunnid to :| onli we 3 late lars, dey shud juz hold us bak instead th class lars >< kkaes.... den maths lesson first time mr lin teach (mr tan hospitalize!) , yeah... i tink his voice damn monotonous de lor, listen listen wan slp liao :x bt nv slp lars n gt one more teacher in class sit behind look so class damn quiet, wich is a rare occurance.
EHM. Long post rgt, yea sure it is. ERM. Im saying lots of wrg stuff recently de lor. Like real lot de. I feel td is pretty messed up by no one but myself. Sorry. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 1:38 AM |
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OH.
Dun u tink its juz too great?
First, fer geog i dun get a single thing abt the WHOLE distance stuff.
Second, idk wads gg on abt the WHOLE map thing.
Third, idk how the hell to draw out each type of polygon.
Forth, i hardly even understand the ques of those polygon construction.
Fifth, i cnt realli do geometry somehow.
Sixth, idk whr or how to get the costumes n my grp is gonna suffer while being disgusted by mi.
Seventh, i hv nt a single idea on how to do the 誊清 tt i muz hand up tmr morning.
Eighth, the o-greatest news here is that.
All my Maths, Geog, Drama tests will be nx wk.
And then, my Maths and Drama r both gonna be on tues.
And then, tmr is already 'nx wk', the dear-o-monday which the nx day of it is tues.
Wonderful hars.
Oh tt was so awesome i feel like screaming.
Wth im gonna die, im im i realli am.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 9:11 PM |
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| Saturday, August 15, 2009 |
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Alrites.
Went sch td... bt the sch was closed -_-"
So nv get andris' file, she say nvm bt still abit guilty siah.
Second thing is, idk wad to do coz still had 1hr before the meeting.
So i went amk hub, tinking to chng out of the pinafore denwalk.
Bt den i cudnt find the toilet......
Haf hr plus kept gg in circles.
Loll den met yt at the amk mrt, still in pinafore.
Ok den go andris house.... n so on so on.
Did bush & tree yt andris mi, did lotus stuff r the guys.
I nv do the costume siah go die mi, bt i realli dunno hw sieh.
Dun hv skirts + my old clothes is too small to wear, idk wad to do liao.
Die mi lars, realli sorry ppl.
aiya nv take the bush & tree, these r the store stuff....
Okaes.
So tues gt maths test... and idk when's geog test wors.
I noe nx wk bt dunno exactly lars~
Haiz........
Thr's seriously nth im doing right.
Fine.
Tt's all. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 3:21 AM |
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Td, is a horrible day.
Basicalli i'd decided to skip guides since ytd.
Den, my fren td came telling mi td gt enrolment ceremony.
Wich is like omg and i nv bring attire = no badge anyway.
Felt rather sad somehow u noe...
Hesitated alot n wondered if i shud juz attend guides n tell em i forgt bring.
But another fren say if no attire go oso no use, wun giv badge.
So i still skipped, and went to brenda n fiona to amk walk.
Its was sort of apparent tt im more or less an extra thr.
Bt like, i juz didnt wan to go home coz i was still hesitant-guiltily-sad-halfwayinsane.
Well, den dey gt some cca party so i went home myself.
Alrites.
And then the drama, wich is juz dunno hw mani days away.
I did not do anything n nid andris help mi, im realli sry and thku.
I hope she do find sth u noe, or i'll be the one in pit man.
I was supposed to be in charge of tt, im realli sry sry sry, hope she find sth tho she might nt = i die.
I'd swear i will nt volunteer myself for anything anymore.
I cnt even do it myself wad right do i hv eh.
Ok.
Den during con malay, wich alot ppl 千方百计 break out of the 'prison'...
Andris ask mi help her take her files she forgotten to her.
I agreed bt ltr i find it too heavy n left it in sch in someone's locker...
So, den i realize i din read the sms carefulli.
She meant to bring it to her on rehearsal, nt monday.
And the rehearsal is tmr, oh wow.
And tues gt a test wich means tmr itself i'd nid to go bak sch...
BUT!! wad if the sch nv open?
Oh man bloody shyt i'd 害 her lez ><
Or shud i juz confess?
Or shud i lie say i forgt bring(wich'll still 害 her)?
I feel im seriously lying too much these days.
Faked enthusiasm faked generosity faked wadever.
Everything like faked.
Thr's nth im doing right.
Nth at all.
I seriously dun know how to be fine when im not.
Alrites.
Horrible day.
Tt's all. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 5:39 AM |
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| Thursday, August 13, 2009 |
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Td napfa 2.4km rerun -- fer the 3rd time im running.
Went to yck stadium wif some ppl den surprised is empty derhs.
Den leeting's dad was nearby so come fetch us, thku x]
And... i passed it finalli~ timing 17.19min supposedly.
Mayb coz tis time in sch field get to cut corners abit?
Bt at least pass 2.4km liao, tho my 5items fail = napfa fail.
Well.
I juz realized im unwanted again.
Or i had always been n i juz refused to admit it.
Unneeded yeah, ignored yeah, unwanted yeah.
Wadever.
Im juz realli realli tired of trying.
I always get the opposite of wad i wanted.
People seem to have most things.
I did not lose it, i juz nv had anything to begin with.
Biased, this whole world is.
Alrites.
Tt's all.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 2:55 AM |
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| Wednesday, August 12, 2009 |
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Td gt hmt test -__-
Ytd gt back sci test... nt sayin score bt i v honest go deduct 1mark k!
Somebody harr....!!
And i did.
Skipped guides again td.
PL call mi i nv answer...
Oh yea gt th history ca2 proj...
Supposed hand in td but nv hand in coz nv do.
Shyt man i fer the paper nv take oso noe is goner.
Nw proj oso zero.... arghhh.
Hm, n tmr gt 2.4km rerun.
Again, 3x running siah.
Hope i finalli pass it.
Tho i failed my 5 items so its still the same.
Alrites.
Tt's all. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 5:08 AM |
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... Hey.
Td went fer drama, woke up at 7.30am siah.
It appeared i was the earliest -_-
I tot the mrt is gonna take at least 30min, when it onli took 9min.
Did nt eat breakfast n so at admiralty, bot a burger thr.
Well so rehearse n stuff.
Ltr drink oreo milkshake at andris plc aha.
Nice as ever hehe.
ERMS, den the costume i nv do anything lars ; srysry!
After tt go home wif juniper n she bot kfc n we eat, yah.
Den.... go home use com le lors.
Alrites.
I nv did a single hmwk, im dying damn mi.
Tmr nid go sch already....
Blehh.
Tt's all.
Im realli realli tired of this biased reality.
Wad, u can have and is gonna have everything while im left to have nothing??
Can u juz please, havent u had more than enuf??
Why muz u still vie wif mi the priority when i had wanted it even before u did??
Besides, u already had one for gdness sake.
Oh yes yes yes ur so gd at everything and im so bad in every ways.
Fine so ur in a clean adv arent u, so now come show mi tt??
Hey, juz because i prefer peace and less trouble doesnt mean u can juz take everything!
Im telling you, i already hv nothing and im not letting u have everything.
Wad i always get is always those u dun wan, dun nid.
Im seriously tired of this. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 1:02 AM |
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OMG.
I tell u ah, i forgt to do the ca2 maths quiz!!!!
SHYT LARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUZ RMB IT ENDS AT YTD 2355.
I DIE I DIE im seriously dead.
I get it i get it, my fault i forgt yeah.
Bt im a goner T-T
Oh ya, td 090809~ National day yeah.
Tis yr's NDP quite nice wors, rather diff.
I see it from tv lars, obviously...
Happy bdae singapore!
Jialat lars.
Tmr 9AM nid go meet, even more dead-- so earli!!
Admiralty so damn far, gonna get up damn earli siah.
And tt oso means i gonna miss th BBF interview.......
I died.
Tt's all. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 12:38 AM |
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Heyys.
Juz came back from a bbq by the RC...
Well, 2 satay 2 otar 1 sausage 1 crab meat 2 chicken wing.
.... Ah-haha, v little lors actualli.
Fine.
Gt hmwk, yes of coz gt alot lars.
But i hvnt do single one lors.]
Im dead i tell u, seriously died.
DEAD im.
Oh ya.
Andris nt well td so bcome monday den meet
:\ Hope nt tues jiu perform liao....
Haiz, im sry.
Kkaes.
Im realli dead, died---
Bt actualli quite typical lars, another day of this idiotslacker here...
Juz tt its a wkend = damn gd.
Alrites.
Tt's all. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 6:14 AM |
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Omigosh.
I went wif kimberly n bei to nlps...
Reached le den is so damn empty lor.
Mrs cha left haf a hr b4 we reached.
And mrs lee-goh whose last day is td oso left alr...
So damn sad lars cnt even see one of em.
After i found out dey both left hor, thr seriously was no pt in gg back lors.
So i went straight home.
Shudnt have went bak td siah.
And somehow gt a weird feeling....
Oh rgt.
Morning i put the bronze testwk in front of guides thr n nv go to meet after sch.
Out of TOO MANY testwk i hvnt hand in, i onli brought one.
And its certainly incomplete i tell u, n was rejected b4.
Die hars, well yes i WILL die.
Plus i nv do duty den all other sec1s sure annoyed + seniors sure disgusted.
Sian i noe its my fault fer skipping duties n nt doing testwk, but bleh.
Im done for, oh yes im dying.
I dun tink i realli hate guides u noe, I tink th seniors might be better if i hadnt skipped so much?
But i hate those always-got-de-testwk+future courses+future cip+future nyaa.
And tts abt wad all guides' is abt....
OH YA.
Actualli td is celebrating national day.
So attire is red or white, i wore a white top wif jeans yeah.
Spent alot on food lors, onli played one game.
I so damn no strength can hardly lift the stick.
And kept falling down, wich was juz so damn pathetic.
JW say she nv use strength coz she scared hurt mi =.=
She nv even fall once siah, mayb she tink my hardest was nt in the least hard.
Aiya taekwondo learner arhs!
Kkaes, but i admit im the one who dun hv strength lars.
Ohhh i oso went haunted house.
V dark lors, but nt tt scary.
But dey say the last part is th most scary...
I missed tt coz onli 2 ppl get to go nearer to the mirror.
Coz i wasnt one of the 2ppl......
-_-" Haiz...
Alrites.
Tt's all den x]
if you hate mi, den dun bother to appear friendly my Friend,
its making mi feel worse .
i can live without you. you dunnid mi, do you ; and so dun i nid you.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 9:49 PM |
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Actualli.
Td was pretty typical.
Lessons.
Oh i put those tibit beans into the bottle b4 i left for sch.
And pasted some paper over it and its my percussion instrument.
So after i showed the teacher i ate them.
Ha.
Oh ya td gt the hmt ca2 lor.
Our class l8 den gt punished but we cheated haha, walk til 2nd floor nia.
But coz of tt stupid punishment the test started l8 lo, tho extended into sci lars.
Gt 2 ques is anyhw do one lor, sure wrg de.
Den gt bak maths paper... waliao damn damn poor lor.
Idiot slacker yeah i noe alot ppl disgusted wif mi so idiot still so slack.
Tmr guides supposedly nid hand in testwk.
But nopez, im not doing any.
Not like i can finish, nor do i wan to finish.
Well... hate mi if you wan, haiz.
The drama thing i oso dun seem to hv done anything bleh & real sry......
...Im realli realli very sry ><
Alrites den.
Tt's all.
i guess i can live without you, oh yes i can, i tink.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 1:23 AM |
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| Wednesday, August 5, 2009 |
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You noe.
Running is better than testwks, definitely.
We did some drills den PT fer guides td.
I say i nv "finish" testwk n dey say hand in on fri.
Like wth, ask mi do all testwk in like 1day??
Bleh if not will double the PT wich is o-m-g.
But even tho when i running i will almost like gonna die liddat hor.
I seriously still tink PT is better than testwk...
Im nt gonna do lars, the testwk...
At most i hand in all the rejected testwk again lors.
... Call mi wadever u wan yeah but im so nt gonna do them.
RIGHT.
Talking abt 'do' reminds mi of the whole drama thing.
Nx wk nid perform liao!!
Shyt shyt shyt means nid get da costume by nx wk.
And idk how or whr to get it nor do i noe whr to borrow it.
Like excuse mi, whr gt ppl so coincidentalli hv the costume i wan eh.
Die i nv realli did anything.........
Means most likely end up wif no costumes????
OMG tt will be... horrible to my grp members.
Gdness, im sorry........
Oh yea, den tis fri national day celebration.
Idk if gonna wear not lez O:
Wadeverrrrrrrrrrr
Alrites.
Nth much, juz gt the 1st efl since sch reopen.
Abt the mediation and stuff lars.
Tt's all.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 5:05 AM |
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Damn it.
Tmr gt heck guides.
Dey say muz complete all testwks or nid run.
Bleh i realli cnt be bothered seriously.
Supposedly 3rounds each unhanded in testwk fer whole company.
Means i will be causing other ppl run oso.
Ohh well, i still cnt heck care.
I wud hv skipped tmr guides if nt fer the cookie sale thing.
Cheh bloody craps.
Talking abt guides bring mi back to the cca i wanna join...
The teacher dun wan mi TT
Ok nt exactly lars, coz obviously i cnt catch up wif other sec1s.
Wich mean if i ever even get the chance to join i will be wif the sec1'10 as a recruit.
Tt. Seriously. Gave mi doubts whether to still join or nt.
Coz tt means no fren company even in cca coz dey'll be in main band liao n tts juz...
Even more sad as if my life is nt pathetic enuf.
So i tot again....
Idk hw mani heck times i hv alr tot thru to even decide i'll leave guides.
But i tink im ending up wif the same conclusion.
"Anything is better dan guides.
Just so long i can leave guides."
Perhaps nt exactly anything but, yeah.
Nw i juz hope the teacher will nt refuse mi =.=
Coz i get a feeling i might, n tt wud meant my loss in tis bet.
Fine.
Btw, im so damn pissed off nw fer some unknown reasons.
Oh yea it scared mi thr when i tot i lost the sale order form.
Bt found it lars kk.
Alrites.
Tt's all den.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 4:58 AM |
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insanity in the moonless night
im living in void and i noe it
but thr's nth i can do to help it
in on an empty, wad had i left to help it?
i need to face reality and it sucks.
It wud have made any other typical days.
'Cept tis afternoon's oral conversation reminded mi of some stuff.
Makes mi nostalgic, those memories once upon a time.
I juz rmb how carefree and happi i once was.
Haha.........
Guess i did right choosing to do oral td.
Air con! hehe..
I was juz so damn happi tinking abt the once-upon-a-times while w8ing fer 45.
Den ltr i boarded 852, still haf-happi til haf way den i too tired.
I tink i slpt a little.
Knew i was hitting my head in front but i lazy open my eyes coz wan slp.
Lawls bt nt realli slp la, rest beh.
Forgt buy instrument set.
Oh well nt like i gt enuf money liddat la hor.
And the music instrument hw ting i oso hvnt do.
Tt reminds mi, bloody guides reflection eh.
Gonna do a damn short one, dey nv say minimal one cheh.
I cudn't care less fer tis crap reflection.
Kkaes...
Alrites.
Nth much liao lars.
Fine.
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 1:56 AM |
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Heys.
Finalli read the jacob's bk in breaking dawn.
Tt time i skipped it n read the rest of breaking dawn u see.
So officialli finish the whole twilight saga!!!
Hmmm, so i read...
-Twilight 4x
-New moon 3x
-Eclipse 1x
-Breaking dawn 1.5x
- The twilight movie 2x
 from left: breaking dawn (mine), eclipse (mine), new moon, twilight
on top: the twilight movie vcd
PERFECT COLLECTION YEAH?? :DDD
Tho nt realli mine lars.
Im owing money to the library fer the disc.
A few days since due date liao.
But i cudnt find an appropriate time to take tis pic til td.
Appropriate time as in nobody watching mi haha.
Perhaps tts y im seriously damn broke recently.
To willingly and knowingly owe money juz fer a pic :D
But im so luving tis hahahahha.
Bet u im gg to go grab twilight first.
And stuff into my so-called collection.
Once i paid off my loans tt is.
Note, it's pural.
My loans r probably $18, wif $10 more to save up fer the cookie by wed...
Omg im juz so damn broke.
Gonna take some time b4 i get enuf money fer twilight eh.
And tt will oso depend if the obsession still last on mi by den.
Oh yea.
Bloody, guides wan us do some stupid reflection on campfire.
Tts tt, still wan us complete testwk!
Ha, i cnt realli make myself bothered...
Alrites.
Tt's all.
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