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| Thursday, December 31, 2009 |
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Today. The last day of 2009. Not gd a yr as it is, i dun wan 2010 to come... Haiz. Planned ter have the super long post like last yr but hor, my memory is getting worse tat i cnt rmb lots stuff of the yr so mayb not all tat long oso?
January
Got into anderson... Honestly was abit excited & nervous lars, new sch ma. Oh pocket money went up lars, juz tat i spend more eherh... So hm, gotta wake up much earlier like 5.30am liddat and the first day of sch i rmb going to beside the hall place to see class allocation. Well 1/2. Quite a coincidence gt in same class as juniper & kimberly? Okaes so well i rmb... The first impression is that... Classrm was freaking dirty. Blue desks abit grey sia, put my hand gt the finger print lols. So rmb kip wiping the desk after i sit down ^^" Ohoh, the class was still super quiet at this time i rmb. Kind of the quietest class hm? 180degree change now man. The student council ppl had a v hard time getting us to respond... Gt the bonding sessions in the week of orientation, den ltr gt a campfire wich fire is damn fake. And start the lessons n all... yea.
February
Hm i rmb arnd feb i kept thinking "i shud have went st nics i shud have went st nics!!" Uhuh den yea, lessons go on and my maths tests all like super lan results
March
Er lessons & tests go on? By den already start cca lar... Was so guai u noe go every single time. But its a past tense so obviously not now. Haiz.
April
Well lessons & tests & usuals go on lor. (was still guai eh)
May
Aside lessons & tests & usuals... My bdae lar aha. Thx super lots once again to those who kind of congratulated mi or sth... *bows* And esp those hu gave mi pres/sing tyyy. I know nobody'll see this lar but still u noe. Thxx.
June
HOLIDAYS. Ok anywae rmb gg fer guide campfire preparation n stuff eh... Den yah the usual stuff i do on hols (com lor) plus after tis & tat, the guide campfire. Pretended to be enthu hao bu hao. Nth to be enthu abt at all lor -_-" The games n blah the seniors all cheer and scream den i go along lor. I'd clap hard fer the nice performances lar, but every ppl cheering so oso do tat lo. And gt duty fer drinks during performances, the senior gd den allow shift or else completely wun get to see a single performances lo. Den. After campfire. The skipping of cca started after i sent an email to the band tcher. --I was an idiot really.
July
Lessons & tests & usual go on. Juz tat, kip skipping cca lor... Either the fri of the wks coz dey nid wear haf-u wich i dun like or juz simply skip both days. *Idiot idiot idiot mi* Oh ya, and the bloody napfa test. Fail lar, wad else. Damn embarrassing lo, like everybody arnd looking den cnt even do a shit. Standing board jump & pull up most damned crap la. Hate napfa seriously.
August
Lessons & tests & usual go on again. Uhuh the idiocy of mine went on as well. Oh gt national day lol.
September
The same thing la... lessons, tests, usuals.
October
Lessons & sa2 exams...Tried to catch up coz falling behind by mountains, but not to alot of avail. Plus maths leh still. Haiz. Oh gt the be yourself day. Gt a fake "tattoo" lols, rose derh. Hm. Oh... ipw pres thing? Tat day suck, gomen. Wondered y i did tat, sucks. And after tat, when get back results the problem start. Wavered like totally coz reasons are thr. Damn wad shud i do...
November
Early holidays so yea HOLIDAYS. Com com com, yea so damn sry i dun hv tat much of a life as others. Time passes like lightning, honestly.
December
Omg time passes even faster tis month honestly. One blink and everything is gone. Juz how come an hr in sch takes so freaking long while one mth of hols go so fast?? Btw, gt abit obsessed wif Yullen this mth lol. Hm gt xtra guides meeting tis mth lar. Went fer em all, cept one. Coz the day my leg muscle sprain was the day i nid hand in the drawing s0 i had ter go. So the nx meeting 2days ltr i nv go lor, the sprain abit better bt i didnt go tat one day lolz. And den the last meeting on 28th. Shudnt have went man T.T Coz sec2s hv nyaa den the senior ask mi if i wan go nyaa & if i'll still be in the cca nx yr. Brot back the paper anywaes coz idk yet argh. And dey gt a training camp during jan, gotta slp on newspaper on grass full of ants!! Gdness.
Farewells 2009. I must say this yr wasnt a gd one but i realli not looking forward to 2010 sia. Not v long ba tis post? Lol, ok la mayb abit long but still quite short le compared ter last yr's. Hm 1st time im doing this, juz wanted ter try it out. New yr resolution thing har. Well here goes.
:: 2010 resolutions ::
• Better grades fer academics
• Be a person who wouldnt go back on her words
• Pass napfa and silm down damnit.
:: End of it ::
Mayb abit too mani considering its da first time im trying it out but oh well. So damn wanted to put my cca inside but i still cnt decide my heck cca so dun dare yet... Ok. And I shall miss ya blog, really, coz i tink im changing my blog. Abit sad coz i hv been here 2yrs ler... Farewells den, 2009. I shall also thk all those who kindly dun mind mi by their sides tis yr. And my dear blog infinitejusticez, thx fer accompanying mi these 2 tough yrs thru all the ups and downs, thkyou realli. |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 2:02 AM |
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| Tuesday, December 29, 2009 |
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Ok im posting again. Ha. Damn i suck. So damned im. First im stuck wif the fked up cca situation and after dk how mani heck mths it's still thr. 2009 coming to an end argh. And juz sth bitchy i did again. Well i agreed gg to the class (or haf-class actualli) bbq but when i ask hu is gg i dun wanna go alr. Coz thr's nobody thr i even tok wif so if i go i gonna be like so freaking out of place and hols ending i dun wan go sit thr do nth. So bad rgt mi? Bitchy. Damned mi. I agree sth and i kip gg back on it. Some sort of bitch im. Ha so not funni. Bt u noe i noe i didnt ask bt b4 tonite de sms i dun even noe whr and when so kind of like... Idk. Argh juz makin xcuses fer myself. Haiiiiz. Ok so im gonna ignore the sms "walao... go luh" coz i said i nt gg coz nobody to tok wif. Diao mi nx yr is gonna be bad as well. Guilty fer it but.... argh. And wtf, cca prob is still... ARGH. Im... such a bad person arent i.
人家说大丈夫言而有信，但我却一直言而无信呀.
不止, 背后说人坏话乃是心胸狭窄之为,但我虽口口声声说我不做此事却还是那么做呀.
不是坏人一个我还会是什么?
Bitched,
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 9:14 AM |
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| Monday, December 21, 2009 |
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Ok some time no post har... Shytty hell damnit all its the 21st already. SO WAD TO DO WIF MY CCA?????? Damnit, damnit all. Haiiiiiiz. Anyway first off td i went to guides eh, woke up 7.40am ha. Abit of drillings... Aiya, its abit of this and abit of that lar. Den went wif geokling eat macs @ amk. Okae den reach home, use com. Uhuh generally tats abt it. Btw my leg damn pain since ytd... OH YA.
Yea hm sat went out wif felicia. I was late aha, so 2.30pm den meet dao... At 1st say go vivo one but den end up walking bugis. Bought a pair of slippers in bugis street, kinda same to my current one eh but current de seem abit old liao lol. Den ltr go mos burger eat; mussles & nuggets & coffee milkshake. And den i gt buy a watch from bugis de shopping centre, $10. Haish, never buy any clothes >n< Ok so after finalli we went to vivo. And man, wasnt it far?? I tot its at...eh whr, shyt i 4gt, anywae i tot it was nearer but it turn out to be at HARBORFRONT. Okae. Felicia wanted to go some restaurant bt cnnt find coz seriously too big liao & the directory is floor by floor de and its lik, tiny. So well i saw outside quite nice den i ask if wan go out so went out. Haha den start taking pics. Took alot neh, kind of a scenery, i juz luv the calm sea... But camwhoring session -erhum- not successful. One successful one of myself nia. So after camwhore walk abit den go bak liao coz late ler. Ate at 18th chef, yummy egg omelette again wif a drink wif rootbeer taste... Den go home. Yeps the end.
Alrites. BACK TO THE MAIN IDIOTIC FKING HELL PROBLEM -_- So? Idk idk idk idk. Haiz this is getting crappy and surely nth is gonna turn out gd at all. Freaking. Out of time sia, seriously critically out of time. How shud i put it? This hols juz literally teleported by, walao, 21st dec already!!!! I shud study shudnt i, nx yr streaming, yes but i never did. Never even touched a page of anything related to academics. Fk. Juz wasted my time in forums/fanfics/photoshop/manga. Lovely. Yes u noe tats wad half my brain is telling mi: study la u idiot. The more dominant one tat cant be more lazy is: holidays is fer playing dun play now no chance liao. DAMNIT.
Oh ya i almost forgot again. I cut my hair last thurs. Hell, cut too short liao >< I wan it grow out fast sia... Too short too short... The bangs ok but the length is lik realli too short. Haiz nth is going smooth fer mi har, damn.
Hm idk y i feel like writing my fav quote of all times. Besides it cnt suit my situation more.
If you had to choose on a path, which way will you go?
The right one where there's nothing left,
or the left one where there's nothing right?
dun make mi laugh, you'll be there fer mi?
who was ever there fer mi before?
kwanhong--- |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 2:06 AM |
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| Tuesday, December 8, 2009 |
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JIWON IS NOT COMING BACK TO SG. O-M-G. Im so damn seriously shocked. Shocked. TT-TT I noe i got more problems lik my cca to think about bt im juz so. Shocked. And sad. All of a sudden summore. Crap. Idk what to say. Just. So. Very. Shocked. I shall call her tmr. Man feel sad. Anw abt my cca still thinking n thinking n thinking... And obviously still getting nowhere at that. So im supposed to be anxious for time is running out in deciding my cca, im suppose to be sad for realizing im a bad person but im shocked. Still shocked. Ok. Realli dunno wad to say now. Shocked. Bye.
mixed feelings;
kwanhong--- |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 9:23 AM |
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| Saturday, December 5, 2009 |
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Awwwwww man. Tis sucks. Firstly, of coz still abt the messed up cca problem caused by myself. And secondly i realize i 4gt ter return the twilight disc i borrowed from sch library. Argh nw its covered in clouds of dust n thr's a possibility tt the nx person hu borrowed it go up to the librarian to say tt the disc cnnt work?! Den librarian will trace the previous user up to mi den ask mi pay?! Gdness tinking too much perhaps, hope so, coz its seriously dusty. But honestly, guess tts nt the main prob har... TIME IS RUNNING OUT DAMNIT ALL.
Band? Guides? Band? Guides? Band? Guides? Wth idk anymore. ARGH seriously im a goner man. I was stupid enuf to skip b4 confirming i wanna realli join band... Din even confirm if its allowed btw. Damn. Haiiiiizz. Seriously idk whether to juz curse and shout and slam things or to sit in a corner sighing whole day long doing nth else. If thr isnt such thing as "internet", "com" or "tv" i'll be no doubt doing either of tt fer the short-lik-shyt period of time. Damnit all. Ok n on a side note im getting seriously fatter n fatter. And one more ting, my sis said i had an attitude prob okaes cheh, do i realli hv one. Rgt, bak to it. Argh man no time, not one at all. WTH IDK ANYMORE............................................argh..... DAMNIT LA WTF! Haiiiiiiiiiiz.
Goner already;
kwanhong--- |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 8:57 AM |
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| Tuesday, December 1, 2009 |
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Alrites. To start it off, td is the 1st of dec 2009!! The start of the last month of hols... Oh well. Basicalli i watched 2012 wif bei & felicia ytd and spent my day td in front of com lik usual. We went bishan de gv watch, nv buy popcorns bt i bot powdered peanuts, $1.50~ Hm nt bad a movie lars, bt when i tink world's gonna realli end in 2012 its rather... scary eh. Since tis yr drawing to an and, it wud meant 2yrs more onli hars? And when i was watching i rmb i tot of sth lik, "all humans are equal in the sense that everybody is powerless if god wants them to die." Hah...
Btw, im kinda on yullen from dgrayman these days... Yullen aka kanda X allen. Lolz. 1st time i support a yaoi so far man. Even went around finding their fanfics to read. Haha. Oh juz to make it a point, before i was onto yullen i was onto dgrayman's master-disciple; cross & allen. Well coz the usualli cold n evil shisho cared n 'cried' for allen n sumhw i juz gt into them lols. And thr's tis song from dgrayman oso wich i took v long to find. Tsunaide te ni kiss wo ; a touching and sad song i wud say... "watashi wa inori, tsutsukeru ; domoka konoko ni ai wo; tsunaide te ni, kisu wo" The second line wich translated "please give your love&blessings to this child", kinda sad if u noe wad im toking. In a nutshell, nt onli the tune itself giv off a sense of sadness the lyrics r too.
Anywaes. I still dunno wad to do... Nobody can help mi since i was the one hu landed myself here, im sticking to this alone. But seriously thr isnt any choice. Comeon, unless u say i can stay in guides after missing the trifoil ceremony n the whole yr of testwk? Or fail my impt streaming exams along wif handling tons of pressure by going to band? I killed myself, its nobody's fault but mine tt im stuck here. Lik choosing a choice from no choices. Ha. Suicidal act sure indeed. Count down is starting isnt it... Im running away from reality every single freaking day. Goodness wad am i to do... 5 months and im still stuck on this. Haf more month isnt realli gonna help is it? I feel lik bashing myself damnit. Damnit all.
Leaving mi insane alone;
kwanhong--- |
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| [Hong] ♥ 明知没有答案还是要问 | 8:31 AM |
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